如果你要离去，如果你要离去
别再回头，别再回头
如果你要回头，如果你要回头
别再看我，再看我
看我满脸的泪痕站在街头默默看你走
为什么你一点也不挽留
一个人的生活并非你想象的那么好
要我怎么说你才会知道
我要你别走，我要你回头

如果你要离去，如果你要离去
别再回头，再回头，再回头看我

当然在最初的几个星期里，度日如年是很正常的感觉。然后在时间的夹缝中呼吸，用一年的时间，不知不觉，冷却一个礼拜的热情。

是很容易的么？

每天在悲伤中沉睡下去，在清晨的阳光中醒来，问自己：今天是不是要比昨天好过一点了？是的，我会一天一天地好起来，但同时也会一天一天地，慢慢爬回自己的小壳，不再勇敢。

唉，谁能给我一点氧气，我快不能呼吸。

Jul 12   Had a drink till early morning

Jul 13   Tanglewood Music Festival

Jul 14   Had a drink...again

Jul 15   The Question

Jul 16   Lunch at "Au Bon Pain"

Jul 17   Museum of Fine Arts, Boston

           WALL-E

Jul 18   45-min Walk to Green Line along the Charles River

           Get drunk before dinner

           Get really drunk...

           ......

Jul 19   Logan Airport

           You fly away, and i will stay

When you run into my arms,
We steal a perfect moment.
Let the monsters see you smile,
Let them see you smilling.

Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.
We barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Yeah, life is beautiful.
Our hearts, they beat and break.

When you run away from harm,
Will you run back into my arms,
Like you did when you were young?

Will you come back to me?
I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in.

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated,
we barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Stand where you are.
We let all these moments pass us by.

It's amazing where I'm standing,
There's alot that we can give.
This is ours just for the moment,
There's alot that we can give.

It's amazing where I'm standing,
There's alot that we can give.
This is ours just for the moment,
There's a lot that we can give.

VEGA 4

莫名的伤感，在雨夜中缓缓袭来，耳边持续的是窗外缠绵的滴滴答答，如泣如诉。

她在看一篇朋友很久以前写的小文。

“年轻女孩大抵都犯过一个错，认为自己是把这类人物渡出灯红酒绿的佛，事实是只能证明自己还没有哭够。”

“越是年少，人们越是了解爱情…”

是一个伤感的故事，一段没有回报的感情，以及安静的离开。

她早在很久以前，似乎就明白了一个道理。

世界上总有那么一种人，就是为了伤害别人而来。但后来她发现，事实并不是那样简单。

善于伤害他人的人，多半曾经被狠狠地伤害过。

人们热爱互相折磨的游戏，千百年来乐此不疲。深究其原因，恐怕可以有长篇大论，分别从不同角度，归根究底，于是成为一门学问。

而她只是觉得，是痛感，才让人们感到存在。

年少，经过痛苦的剥离，而最终成长。

剥离的是信仰，是对过去所有“我认为的世界”的彻底颠覆 。

虽然可怕，但这是唯一的道路。

这条道路叫做“成长”。

然而当她发觉自己的心变得越来越麻木的时候，她甚至有那么一种近乎变态的渴望，她渴望被狠狠伤害，好让她变得更加勇敢。

但事实是，她并不那么勇敢，她宁愿过着无痛无痒的生活。

伤害的代价太大，虽然她享受那种劫后余生的快感。

可是如果只有劫难，而没有余生，又怎么办？

这是她不敢去想象的。

只是经过了一个又一个人，就像漫长的旅程，最后只留下自己,一个人。

There was times I’d see her coming down that street, stepping through broken bottles and gum, and carrying her shoes, barefoot. People said she was crazy but I don’t know.

About six months before the fire there was … there was a big blackout. Famous, summer blackout. She walked around through the halls giving everyone candles. Scared everybody away in the end.

Then when the fire happened, you know, everybody assumed it was her. There had been fires in the halls that year, little ones. I dunno if it was fair or not but everybody blamed her for it.
　　　　
And then one day she… she just vanished. And later they… said her name was Alice. All that time I never knew her name.

 <Son of Alice>

<Nolita>

Keren Ann

     可是现在什么都没有留下。

     我想念eddie,joniece,elim, 想念professor parker, 想念silver street 和sidgewick site的buttery，想念andrew,amy,natalie,yuji,nan,ecco,risa，想念st.catharine 和selwyn,想念marks&spencer......

     everything.

     每天早上走在silver street去上课的路上，总是觉得，好像已经日复一日地这么过了好多年，如果剑桥有记忆的话，是否能够记住我曾经的脚步？

     然而重新回到上海酷热的怀抱中，却觉得，这一切似乎只是一场梦，梦醒来，发现一切还是原来的样子，实际上，好像什么都没有发生过。

     Beacuse life lies...

Give you my lovin'
Seven days a week
I'll be your honey
If you'll be sweet
I know I'm the only one for you
I know that you think this is not true

Man says it's rainin'
Rainin' outside
I'll be out there in a little while
Cause you see
Rain reminds me of you
And everything has turned to you

See you in places
I'm following you
You'll be upstairs
And I'll be there too
Everywhere you go
I will follow
I know it won't be the same tomorrow

People give me warnings
Stay away from you
They say you'll hurt me
I don't think that's true
Discomfort arouses when I speak of you
As if you've been sayin' something bad
About me

When I see you
I want to kiss you
But I know that ain't right
So I ask if I can hold you
Oh babe I need you so bad
Oh babe I only want to make you Glad

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse